I put together this little list of things that I want to do in the immediate future and it made me think..

why should I limit my list to the immediate future? so the idea is to make a list of life goals. things that I aim to do while I'm alive. I'm going to be working on my list, and I think when it's done I'll carry it around with me everywhere for reference and perspective and grounding and all of that stuff.

this all kind of circulates around something that I've been thinking about lately though.. determination is a really interesting thing. and it's amazing how little mental notations of "I'm going to do x thing in t time" have such an impact on the long run. you make these relatively small changes in your life and you keep getting closer to wherever you're reaching. it seems really primitive.. and I think it's safe to say that it is. determination seems to be rooted in survival. there's a persistent beast in all of us with some hidden agenda that acts out to stay existing. it's kind of like background noise to daily life. little remnants of our animal desires.

all of that gets mixed up with self-awareness and is bombarded with all of these metaphysical feelings and you find yourself in the cereal aisle, mulling over brands while your brain is calculating price differentials and quality and how it makes you feel inside and you kind of step back and wonder.. why am I doing this again? Oh, because I'm hungry!

we are mind and body but we communicate in different tongues. body is like "nom, nom" and mind is all like "my feelings" n shit. it's all kind of fun though.